I am a quitter

This is important. It’s not an easy thing to talk about either.

I am a quitter. It’s true. I start so many new things and then just quit.

A little voice inside me tells me that what I am doing is not good enough.

That there is no point in what I am doing.

That I will only fail anyway so what’s the point.

But let’s be clear,

THAT IS THE DEPRESSION TALKING.

Having said that, knowing that doesn’t make it any easier. In fact it makes it harder because you know why you are quitting. You know that it probably isn’t true. But in many cases you simply don’t have the strength of will to overcome those, niggling, nasty, negative voices that tell you to quit.

So, you quit!

And it’s not just small things either.

You quit having friends. You quit working on the only dreams you’ve ever had. You quit looking after yourself.

And, in many extreme cases you quit LIFE.

It’s a sad fact that for men like me (those under 45) the single biggest cause of death is suicide.

One of the many but undeniable definitions of suicide is

“being or performing a deliberate act resulting in the voluntary death of the person who does it”

Otherwise known as quitting.

But the word voluntary is misleading. People with depression who commit suicide don’t necessarily choose to die. I guess in the purest sense of the word they do but there’s just so much more to it than that.

The never ending feelings of sadness, despair and low self worth interspersed with fleeting moments of clarity are what drive many people to make the hardest choice of all.

To quit on life.

And we HAVE to find a way to stop it.

More is being done than ever before but things really aren’t changing.

I don’t have the answer, I wish I did but by thousands, millions of people talking about it I am hopeful that one day things will change.

With that in mind. If you have taken the time to read this I would really appreciate your thoughts on the issue. What do you think? Have I been to strong/not strong enough? Just tell me what you think.

Enough for now.

DDD

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